CHAPTER
ONE
October 1844
Momentarily forgetting her son clinging to her skirt and the heavy
bag hanging from one arm, she began to run, desperate to reach her baby.
Margarette wove her way through the crowd separating her from the woman in
a gray cloak who was walking away with her tiny daughter. Despair
threatened to overwhelm her. She'd taken every precaution she could
think of, still they'd been found. A surge of strength lengthened
her stride. She wouldn't give up---not ever. She was a good mother
and her children needed her, not the bitter, cruel old man who claimed it
was his right to raise his son's children and discipline them as he saw
fit. She had no intention of allowing her children to be punched and
whipped as their father had been until he lost all hope of a better life.
The woman stopped, and Margarette rushed toward her, determined to
reclaim her daughter. A cry behind her was a reminder that Jens was
clinging to her skirt and struggling to keep up. She stopped
abruptly. What was she going to do? The strange woman had
Annelise, but if she pursued her, would she be giving someone an
opportunity to steal Jens too?
The woman carrying Annelise turned abruptly, retracing her steps and
closing the gap between them with a couple of swift strides. Dropping the
bag she still carried, Margarette grasped her son's hand in a protective
grip then straightened to face the beautiful, dark-haired woman rushing
toward them. She briefly noted the bright Scottish plaid of the gray
cloak's lining that framed the woman's face, before centering on the
woman's fierce facial expression. Margarette lifted a hand as though
she would somehow defend herself and her son, but instead of reaching for
Jens, the woman thrust the baby girl hard against Margarette's chest.
Margarette clutched at the infant with one hand and staggered back a step
from the force of the abrupt gesture. She heard Jens's cry as she
stumbled against him. Frantically, she reached to regain her hold on
him and stay erect without dropping the baby.
She feared the woman's action was some kind of trick to distract
her, but no matter what the woman did, Margarette would not release her
hold on her children. God entrusted Jens and Annelise to her, and
she would not relinquish them to anyone. The baby began to wail, and
Margarette clutched her children tighter, watching as the fashionably
dressed woman, without speaking a word, gathered up her skirt, turned, and
raced with her gray cloak streaming behind her toward the plank linking
the Carolina to its sister ship, the Nightingale, a bridge she had been
told provided the passengers and crew of the other ship with access to the
wharf via the Carolina.
"Mamma," the little boy sobbed against her hip.
"You hurted me."
"I'm sorry, dear. Hold on tight to my skirt. We
must get to our quarters quickly." She retrieved her bag with
the hand that had held Jens's small hand, clutched the crying baby with
the other, and with little Jens obediently clinging to her skirt though
sniffling, she made her way to the stairs that led below. She wanted
to run, to get her children out of sight as rapidly as possible, but she
forced herself to move slowly, accommodating Jens's short legs as she
threaded her way through the crowd that seemed oblivious to the short
drama that had just taken place. She skirted the deck filled with
passenger cabins and continued her descent toward the lower deck where the
poorer immigrants crowded together in steerage.
Her heart was still beating rapidly as she found the bunk, two
levels below the main deck, that she had claimed during the voyage from
Denmark to England. The bunk was marked by a worn quilt her mother
had stitched when Margarette was a child. It was among the few items
she'd managed to bring with her from her former home.
She had claimed the lower bunk because she feared her children might
tumble from one of the upper bunks and because it seemed the lower bunks
were reserved for families. She noticed that in most cases, single men
claimed bunks on one side of the aisle and single women the other.
Her closest neighbors, across the narrow aisle, were an older couple from
Copenhagen she'd met at a gathering of Saints preparing to emigrate to
America. They tended to be polite and didn't seem to mind if her
children were sometimes noisy. At times, they played with little Jens and
entertained him while she nursed the baby, a kind gesture she appreciated.
She suspected they knew more of her situation than she'd told them, having
likely overheard the many explanations and cautions she'd given Jens, who
resented the confinement to limited quarters.
She could see several bags and a strap of books on the bunk above
the older couple, signifying that it had been spoken for while she'd
strolled about the wharf with her children. The space had gone
unclaimed on the trip from Copenhagen. She'd have to be more careful
of her words now that the ship had taken on more passengers. She let
her gaze wander down the long row of bunks. Nearly all of the spaces
that had been empty before reaching London were now filled with baskets,
bags, and piles of personal belongings. The ship would be filled to
capacity for the remainder of the journey.
Seeking to reassure herself that she and the children were safe, she
noted that the small pile of clothing she'd brought for her children still
lay undisturbed on her quilt. She settled herself on the quilt and
endeavored to quiet Annelise's screams. She wished they'd never left
their small space, but after the cramped journey from Denmark, she'd
decided to chance a stroll along the wharf and had discovered a bakery.
She couldn't regret that the delightful aroma of baking bread had tempted
her to buy two penny worth of the fragrant bread. The meals offered
passengers in the lower deck quarters were already growing tiresome, and
she feared it would be truly unpalatable by journey's end. While the
little boy munched on the fresh bread, she leaned against one of the posts
supporting the bunk bed, tossed a small quilt over her shoulder, and began
nursing Annelise.
"Come rest beside mamma," she spoke to Jens, patting a
spot beside her once the baby's cries subsided. She needed his
sturdy little body next to her as reassurance that both her children were
safe. She looked around to be certain the woman who had taken
Annelise, then changed her mind, hadn't followed them.
"Want to play with boys." Jens pouted.
"You scared me when you ran away to play. That was
naughty."
"I sorry." Jens hung his head for a moment, then
bounced back with a question. "That lady took Annelise.
Is she one of the bad people?"
"I don't know if she's bad, but she gave Annelise back.
Maybe she was sorry she took her." Margarette attempted to
examine the question calmly. She really didn't know what had
happened or why the woman had returned Annelise to her, but she was
grateful to have her. The whole upsetting incident had happened so
quickly. They'd been returning from their short expedition ashore
when she'd become aware Jens was no longer clutching her skirt.
She'd turned to see him hurrying after some older boys who were chasing a
barrel hoop across the ship's deck. Fearful he'd fall overboard or
become lost, she'd placed the sleeping baby and the heavy bag of food
between two thick coils of rope to keep them safe while she hurried after
her son. In moments, she caught her wayward boy and returned for the
baby, Jens in tow, to find a dark-haired young woman walking away with
Annelise.
Margarette couldn't help wondering that if woman had been sent by
Lars and Maria, why she had given up so easily. She wondered too, if
the woman would return, perhaps with someone stronger who could wrestle
the children away from their mother.
Margarette decided she wouldn't go topside again until the ship left
port. They were due to sail shortly after the moon came up and the
tide turned. Until then, she'd keep the children below deck and
watch for anything suspicious.
Jens, tired from their excursion, drifted to sleep, his arms flung
wide, reminding Margarette of Jory and the way he'd flung himself on their
bed exhausted to sleep during those brief months they'd lived in
Copenhagen. That was before his parents, Lars and Maria, found them
and insisted their son and his wife return to the farm to live with them.
She wouldn't think about that unhappy time and the husband who changed to
a tyrant once they arrived at his father's farm. In the weeks
following his death, she'd come to understand Jory hadn't been prepared to
live in the city and wasn't strong enough to continue working on the docks
loading and unloading cargo indefinitely. His return to his father and his
tyranny had been inevitable.
She couldn't bear to see Jens follow in his father's and
grandfather's steps, becoming a cruel and bitter man. She'd promised
on Jory's grave that she'd keep the children safe and give them a new life
where Jens could grow to be a man without fear of his grandfather's
brutality and baby Annelise could avoid the slavery imposed on the women
in Lars Jorgensen's household.
The only way to keep that promise was to take them far away.
"Hello," a cheery voice greeted her. Startled, she
looked up to see a tall, thin young man who appeared to be in his early
twenties smiling down at her with a slightly crooked grin. His head
was bent to avoid brushing the low ceiling and his dark curls fell across
his brow, threatening to hide his deep blue eyes.
"Hallo," she responded in a tentative voice, trying to be
civil. She felt self-conscious in a way she hadn't felt around a man
in a long time as his eager gaze passed over the coiled braids that formed
a pale crown atop her head and slid lower to her plain black serviceable
dress and heavy peasant shoes. She knew she was taller than the
average European woman and that hard work, unfashionable clothing, and the
bearing of two children made her look older than her twenty years.
She'd been told enough times that she was ugly with her pale skin and eyes
the color of the stormy North Sea, yet she sensed approval in his voice as
he said something else. She shook her head, trying to let him know she
didn't speak English.
He grinned and pointed to himself. "Matthew Holmes."
Then he pointed to the middle bunk across the aisle.
"Margarette Jorgensen." She responded politely, not
wanting to get off to a bad start with the young man who would be living
mere feet from her and her children during the long voyage to America.
She smiled tentatively. She glanced to the side, wondering if he
were traveling alone or with friends or family. She didn't see
anyone else, but the remainder of his party might be boarding later.
Only the narrow top bunks held one passenger only and never lower or
middle ones. The third tier of bunks were so narrow, it was difficult to
squeeze in more than one traveler.
"Jens." Her small son leaped to his feet and pointed
to himself. "Annelise." He pointed to his sleeping
little sister, who still lay in Margarette's arms. The young man's
grin grew broader and he carefully repeated each name pointing to the
individual named. Once he was satisfied that he knew their names he
held out his hand to Jens as though the little boy were his equal.
Jens's rare smile erupted across his small face as he shook the man's
hand.
Margarette's breath caught for just a moment and she struggled to
keep tears from forming in her suddenly moist eyes. Seeing
Jens and little Annelise laugh and smile was one of her greatest goals.
She'd hated seeing her son cower before his father and grandfather.
The old man had expected Jory to control his wife and children with a
heavy hand. She and her son had seldom had cause to smile.
Memories crowded out the stranger's bright smile, and her thoughts
drifted to the dock where she often went to watch the ships come and go,
the place where, as a little girl, she'd waited with her mother for her
father's ship to return laden with fish. One day word came that the
fishing boat carrying her father had capsized in a storm and all aboard
had been lost. She and her mother had grieved, then her mother had
found employment in a shop near the waterfront and Margarette attended a
nearby school. In time, they'd learned to smile again, and when two
missionaries from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints
approached them, they eagerly accepted the message the missionaries taught
and were baptized.
When Margarette was sixteen, her mother had become ill and passed
away quickly, leaving Margarette afraid and on her own. On the
second day of her search for employment, she'd walked to the dock.
As she stood watching the ships, one of the men unloading a ship noticed
her, and in a shy, hesitant manner struck up a conversation with her.
Their meeting turned to courtship, and three weeks later, she and Jory
were wed.
Jory had grown up on his father's small farm. The only thing
he knew was hard work and severe punishment, until in desperation, he had
run away. Jory's freedom hadn't lasted long; only long enough to
acquire a wife and to learn that his minimal education and lack of
training and social graces left him unprepared for city life. When
his father had found him, he reverted back to the fearful, obedient youth
with wild bursts of temper he had been before his desperate bid for
freedom, but now instead of dreaming of escape, he had a wife and son on
which to vent his frustration.
Margarette had been barely tolerated by her husband's parents and
any mention of her religious beliefs was forbidden, but after Jory's death
in a senseless farm accident, she found herself needing her faith more
each day. Her son became the focus of his grandfather's attention
and he was treated to a constant barrage of harsh discipline and
expectations beyond the toddler's ability. He never smiled or
played. She began to pray for a more normal life for him.
Heavy with a second child, Margarette could do little to protect her
son. When she gave birth, Lars and Maria berated her for producing a
worthless female for them to feed. Maria took over Annelise's care
and Margarette was relegated to the role of wet nurse, kitchen drudge, and
farmhand.
Margarette had moved through each day numb with exhaustion, feeling
she had not only lost her husband, but her children as well. Falling
into exhausted sleep when she knelt to pray, her anger simmered beneath
the surface until the day Lars beat Jens viciously with his fists for some
small infraction. When Lars refused to allow her to comfort
the small boy or treat his cuts and bruises, she vowed she wouldn't give
up the way Jory had done. Kneeling in the darkness in the middle of
the night, she prayed for help, and a plan began to form in her mind. She
had her mother's wedding ring and felt certain Mor would forgive her for
selling it to aid in her escape plans. Stealing her children from their
beds one night, she'd crept away in the darkness, hiding in ditches and
walking until she had reached Copenhagen.
A small giggle ended Margarette's musing. Startled, she
returned her attention to Jens. No longer was he snuggled against
her side. The young man who had greeted her minutes earlier was
seated on the floor between the two rows of bunks, facing her small son.
He pointed to Jens's shoe and said, "Shoe." Jens repeated
the word, then Matthew wiggled his fingers and said, "Fingers."
Dutifully, Jens echoed the English word, held up his own fingers, and
giggled.
Margarette was torn. She didn't want her son to bother the
other passengers, nor did she want him to speak to strangers, but he'd had
so few moments of pleasure in his young life and he'd spent most of the
voyage thus far healing from the harsh beating his grandfather had given
him. She knew how he longed to play like other children and sooner
or later he must learn English since that was the language that would be
prevalent in America. She couldn't bring herself to deny him an
opportunity to learn English, and if she listened carefully, perhaps she
would learn a few words as well. She made up her mind to allow Jens
this small pleasure.
"Ma'am." Startled she looked up to see one of the
ship's officers. He held a paper in his hand and seemed to be asking
a question of her. She shook her head, trying to signal her lack of
understanding.
"No, no." The old man who shared the opposite lower
bunk with his wife stood beside the officer, gravely shaking his head.
She hadn't seen him and his wife return. The older couple too had
taken advantage of a day in port to walk about. She had been too
caught up in her musings to be aware of her surroundings, a situation she
must not allow to happen again.
The elderly gentleman said something more, his words sounding slow
and unsure in a language she didn't understand, then he turned to her,
speaking rapidly in Danish. "This man said he has been ordered
to search the ship for a woman with two small children she stole from
their guardian, the children's grandfather. He is asking if you are
that woman. He wants you and the children to accompany him to the
wharf where a magistrate will settle the matter. I told him he
has made a mistake." She knew he suspected there had been no
mistake.
Margarette's puzzlement turned to fear as the old man attempted to
explain the officer's question to her. One arm tightened its hold on
her baby, and her panicked gaze flew to the little boy facing the
Englishman on the floor. There was no doubt in her mind that she was
the woman being sought. But she was also Jens and Annelise's mother
and, to her way of thinking, she had every right granted by God, if not by
man, to claim her own children.
Something about the situation triggered a reaction from the man
playing with her son. He stood in one easy motion, then reaching down,
picked up Jens and while holding the boy in his arms, strolled toward the
officer. Soren Pedersen was struggling to interpret for her, but she
couldn't concentrate on his words. A dark storm cloud seemed to be roaring
toward her, drowning out her ability to think. Margarette's heart
pounded, and she debated snatching Jens from the stranger's arms and
fleeing.
Her eyes met Matthew Holmes's eyes, and she felt he was trying to
tell her something. They'd only just met and didn't even speak the same
language, so she had no reason to expect support from him, still she found
herself searching his face for something and sensing some gossamer
connection she couldn't explain. Her son, who was generally
wary of adult males, reached a small arm about Matthew's neck. It
seemed to become the deciding factor for the man.
"Is there a problem, officer?" he asked. He casually
shifted Jens to his other arm and placed his free hand on Margarette's
shoulder. She flinched the tiniest amount, but didn't shake it off.
"Has my family wrongfully claimed space belonging to someone
else?" Anna, Soren's wife was now beside her, whispering a
rough translation. She didn't know why the Englishman was pretending
to be her husband, but she didn't attempt to refute his implication that
they were wed.
Looking confused, the officer glanced at him, then about the rapidly
filling space. He shook his head. "I'm not aware of any
other claim," he told the Englishman. "But the woman . . .
and the children . . ."
"I came to London to work a year ago," Matthew spoke with
casual ease. "She and the children have just arrived.
Together we shall travel to America where there are better opportunities
for the children. The bunk she claimed on the voyage from
Scandinavia seemed to fit our needs, but of course, we will be happy to
seek other space if someone else has a greater claim." She noticed
from Anna's whispered translation that he was careful to not actually lie,
but perhaps the implied lie he was planting in the officer's mind was just
as wrong. She suspected her silence was also a lie. When the
opportunity arose, she would ask the missionaries their thoughts on the
matter, but now she felt a compelling need to protect her children any way
she could.
Anna's movements were spry in spite of the knot of gray hair on top
of her head and the deep wrinkles carved in her face. She moved
closer to Mr. Holmes, but seemed to be still translating for Margarette.
She spoke softly, words she knew the young man could not understand,
though he nodded his head as though he did. Jens's small body
stiffened, warning Margarette the boy heard and did not like whatever Anna
had said. He leaned toward his mother as though eager to go to her.
Before she could stretch her arms to take him, the old woman said
something more. Though Anna faced Margarette, Jens seemed to know
her words were meant for him.
"Far," Jens patted Matthew's cheek as though trying to
gain his attention, then leaned forward to whisper loudly in his ear.
The Danish words meant nothing to Matt, but told Margarette the old woman
understood Matthew was playing a desperate game to keep Margarette and her
children from being removed from the ship and that Anna was instructing
Jens on how to continue the game. She prayed her son would
understand and play his part. She had an uncomfortable feeling that
if her family left the ship, they would be in grave danger.
"The little one," the old man grinned sheepishly, joining
in the charade, "seeks to relieve himself. He wishes for his
papa to . . . Perhaps I could assist . . ."
Matthew almost grinned as the older man reached for Jens, who went
to him willingly. The officer appeared flustered and began to
apologize. He turned about and lost no time leaving the now crowded area.
Jens, it seemed, had provided the final convincing touch.
Matthew crouched before Margarette who was now clutching her
children to her and sobbing. The elderly woman patted her shoulder
and made soothing sounds. He seemed to want to reassure her too, but
unfortunately, she couldn't understand anything he said. She wasn't
even sure she knew exactly what had just happened. Extending a hand,
Matthew patted Jens's head. Margarette lifted her head, and
her eyes met his. No words were exchanged, but she thought he could
read the gratitude in hers. Nevertheless, she thanked him profusely
in Danish.
After a few minutes, Margarette asked Soren to translate for her.
He listened to her jumble of words, then turned to Matthew, and spoke
slowly, stumbling over his words. "She wishes to thank you for
coming to her aid. She loves her children and does not wish for them
to be returned to Denmark. Her husband is dead and his parents beat
the boy and do not allow them to meet with other members of Church."
"Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints?
Mormons?" Matthew asked, a hopeful grin on his face. All
three of the adults he faced nodded their heads, understanding his
question. He grinned and pointed to himself. "I am a
member too. I was baptized a little over a year ago. Tell her
I am happy I could help, but it was little Jens who convinced the officer
Margarette is not the woman for whom he is searching."
"Anna," the old man beamed with pride at his wife.
"She whisper to boy. He smart boy, do as she say."
The two men chuckled, then the older one extended his hand. "I
am Soren Pedersen. We belong Church two years. I study English
with missionaries to help other members they journey to Zion."
Matthew shook the man's hand. Brother Pedersen waved his arm,
including the other Scandinavian passengers around them.
"Sweden, Norway, Finland, Denmark. All baptized. All
Mormon."
"I think many of the English passengers are members of the
Church too. And there are six missionaries returning to
Nauvoo." The old man nodded, signifying he was pleased with the
information, then turned to share the news with the two women.
"Brother Pedersen," Matthew looked hesitant. He
glanced at Margarette, then began speaking in an earnest manner to the
older man. "My father was a brutal man who spent his meager
wages on drink. My younger brother died at his hands during a
drunken rage. My mother was everything to me, and when she passed on
a year past, I made up my mind to go to Zion. I know what a mother
means to a boy and I give my word of honor that I shall do all I can to
keep young Jens from being separated from his mum."
When Soren translated, Margarette was deeply touched. She
offered her gratitude, then sat down feeling awkward.
After a few moments, still with the baby in her arms, Margarette
rummaged in a bag that had been shoved under her bunk. She was aware
that the Englishman watched her covertly with quick sideways glances. His
scrutiny made her conscious of all her shortcomings, especially her rough
hands, which revealed her familiarity with hard work. She withdrew a
square of cloth from the bag. Placing the baby on the quilt, she
proceeded to unfasten Annelise's gown. Matthew resumed his
conversation with Brother Pedersen and Anna. Breathing easier with
Matthew's attention directed elsewhere, Margarette continued to remove the
baby's wet nappy.
Something that had been inside the nappy fell to the floor with a
soft clunk. Margarette stared at the object in disbelief. Her
gasp of astonishment attracted the attention of the Pedersens and their
newfound friend. They turned as she knelt beside the bunk while
keeping one hand on the squirming baby. All three stared at the
object on the floor.
Matthew moved closer, his eyes following hers. There on the
rough planks, half hidden by the hem of Margarette's quilt, lay a small
black bag. He reached for it, and as Soren, Anna, and Jens crowded
around, he released the cord that held it closed and gently shook the
bag's contents onto Margarette's bunk.
A glittering bracelet dropped onto a quilt square. All four
adults gaped in astonishment. The metal chain appeared to be of inferior
quality, but five large stones, each a different color gleamed almost as
though they were hungry to claim the small amount of light in the ship's
gloomy interior.